If I’m being honest, I’ve probably gone through this in my head too many times to count, but have never had the courage to actually sit and write everything down. The only reason you’re actually reading this now is because my friend, Brandi, encouraged me to share my story. This was and will probably be the hardest thing I’ve ever sat down to write. Here’s your warning: this post is extremely long. It’s definitely more of an essay than one of my typical blog posts, but I knew that if I was going to write about this, then I wanted to write about it, including all the gory details that I’ve always been too embarrassed to share with anybody.